Something

Posted: January 2003
Title: Something
Author: Anestel
Type: RPS
Characters: Sean/Viggo
Rating: R just in case
Warnings: Angst but it all works out
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Summary: Sean wakes up alone...why did Viggo leave him after last night?

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How I wonder why
Didn't you feel something
Wasn't your heart jumping
Didn't you have chills running down your spine
Weren't you infatuated
Weren't you illuminated
Didn't you hear music playing
I wonder why
I saw clouds breaking
Felt my whole world changing
So how could you being saying goodbye
Didn't it mean something
Surely you felt something
How could there be nothing in your eyes
Come on and say something
Baby you gotta do something
How could there be nothing there inside
I wonder why
Footsteps down the hallway
Another tear on my face
Words you'll never say race through my mind
Didn't it mean something
Surely you have to feel something
How could there be nothing in your eyes
I saw clouds breaking
Felt my whole word changing
So how could you be saying goodbye

Something by Jaci Velaquez

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Why? Why am I here alone? Why did he leave? Last night had been so amazing, but for some reason I'm lying here alone. Why isn't Viggo beside me holding me in his strong arms? Why am I alone again? These questions race through my mind. How could I just mean nothing to him? Just a quick shag... I know it really happened because I'm sore but it doesn't seem real now. He's gone. He left.

I look at the phone and consider calling him. What would he say? Yeah, last night was great but it meant nothing. We can do it again sometime though. I shake my head, no. Last night was the best night of my life, Viggo held me and made love to me. I was sure the look in his eyes showed it meant something. When he entered me it was like I was the only thing that mattered to him. I thought it had meant something. I hate this. I hate sitting here crying because some man left me after giving me the best sex of my life. I want Viggo back. I want him to be mine and for me to be his.

With a sigh I crawl out of bed and stagger to the bathroom. I piss and then turn on the shower making sure it's nice and hot. I step into the scalding water and begin to wash away the smell of Viggo that still was on me. God, how couldn't he have felt it last night? I'm still reeling, my heart is still pounding in my ears.

After I finish my shower I towel myself off and take out some sweatpants. I slowly put them on. I look at my bed and decide to change the sheets so I wouldn't smell Viggo. Hopefully I would be able to forget. I strip the bed and the pillows. Throwing it all in the laundry basket. Then taking out clean sheets and pillow cases I make my bed.

Coffee...that's what I need. At that thought I go downstairs and put some coffee on. Flipping on the TV I turn it to ESPN. Nothing better to watch. Finally the coffee is ready and I pour myself a cup watching the football game absentmindedly as I drink my coffee. It burns my tongue but I don't really care. Viggo's gone...

At halftime I hear the front door slam shut and jump out of my chair startled. "Sean I'm back..." What...Viggo?...I run towards the voice and look at him carrying fast food bags. I raise my eyebrows.

"Viggo! I thought you had left me..." I say tears brimming my eyes again

"I left you a note saying where I'd be." says Viggo a trace of humor in his voice. "Did you think I would leave after last night? Are you insane? I've never felt something so intense."

"I thought that I meant nothing to you and that you left me because it all meant nothing." I say quietly looking into the blue-green eyes.

"Oh Sean, You are crazy. Last night was amazing. You are amazing. I can never leave you. I don't want to." Viggo says setting the bags down and coming closer to pull me in his strong arms. "I love you and I'm never letting you get away."

He uses one hand to tilt my chin up and then he presses his lips to mine in a soul binding kiss. I feel his arms wrap around me and his tongue press it's way into my mouth. Claiming me. I'm his and he is mine, just like I wanted. When we finally pull away I whisper against his lips. "You don't mean just something to me...you're everything."

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THE END

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