My Secret Love

Posted: November 2003
Title: My Secret Love
Author: Alex
Fandom: Tolkien
Genre: FCHet
Rating: NC-17
Characters: Celebrian/???
Disclaimer: These are not my characters and I do not profit from their use.
Beta: Larian Elensar
Author's Note: I was hunting through my fiction for another story that I did not find and found this instead.
Summary: Celebrian says goodbye to her first love.

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MY SECRET LOVE

Celebrian stood still for her last fitting of the dress she would wear when she wed Elrond on the morrow. She was happy. He was a good elf and would be a good husband and father. He had proven himself many times over and both her mother and father loved him like a son.

She loved him too.

But tonight, she loved another. And she would meet him for their goodbye in a few hours. He had been her sweetheart when they were young. He had been her first lover, and she, his. Actually, before Elrond courted her, he was her only lover.

The time had come to let him go, to move on, to let him move on too.

The seamstress finally left and so did all the tittering handmaidens. Celebrian poured herself a glass of wine and sat in front of her mirror and as she sipped wine and brushed her golden hair, she thought back many years.

They had known each other as children, before the Rings were even forged. He was a distant kinsman of her mother and was fostered in their house since his father was dead and his mother had gone to the Undying Lands. They were near to the same age and spent all their time together, which was easy since her mother and father were so embroiled in the politics of Arda. Her tutor and teachers taught him as well and both youngsters were quick and as bright as the sun that shone on their simple lives.

As time passed, the world changed and darkened, but they seemed to be oblivious to such things. They grew to young adulthood and their attention narrowed from their world to each other until one spring night when they decided to become adults.

Celebrian would never forget his awkward kisses as they lay in her narrow bed...

// He was shaking as he lay beside her, still dressed in his leggings and tunic, she still in her dress.

"I'm not sure what to do," he had whispered. He had not remembered his own parents and the easy affection that married people sometimes had, even Galadriel and Celeborn, and really had no example to follow. Even simple things, like holding hands, were not something he often did.

She felt him tremble as he put a hand on her waist as he turned up on his side to face her more easily. She pulled him close and touched his lips to hers. He moaned and his grip on her tightened. She moved closer and felt him jerk his hips back but not before she felt his erection.

"It is all right," she murmured as his hand moved up to cup her breast. She whimpered as he teased her nipple through the thin material of her dress. She arched into his palm and was a little shocked herself when he moved down and began to kiss her rosy nipple through the same thin cotton. He sucked and licked it until her dress was wet and clung to her skin.

Celebrian felt a warmth low in her body, felt it build into need as he slipped her dress over her shoulders and kissed the bare skin of her neck, her collarbone, the white swell and then felt him suckle hungrily at her bare nipple.

She began to tug at his tunic and soon his naked chest pressed against the softness of her breasts. Other clothing followed and soon, anyone walking by could have heard the two young elves moaning in pleasure and delight...//

Celebrian smiled at the soft tapping on her door. He was here. It had been awhile since she had seen him. She rose and glided over to the door and opened it.

"Erestor, my love, it's been so long."

Celebrian slipped the thin dress from her shoulders and let it drop, smiling at his hungry look. She reached for his robes and raised an eyebrow at the lack of clothing beneath as she pulled his slender body toward her bed. They fell in a tangle of sunshine and sable as long blond hair intertwined with black tresses and their bodies became a similar tangle of limbs.

"I don't want to wait another minute, Erestor. I've thought about you for months." She whimpered as he spread her legs with his hands, cupping her soft mound as he slid one finger into the silky, wet folds and finding the tiny pleasure nub hidden among them. She moaned as he slipped two fingers into her tight heat.

"I love you, Bri," he whispered to her as he kissed her; her mouth parting to welcome him. His kiss was intense and heartfelt; she knew that if she'd been standing, her knees would have grown weak. He moved so his weepy arousal pressed hard against her hip. She was pleased at the sound emanating from his mouth when she wrapped her fingers around his familiar satin and steel shaft and began to slide her hand up and down.

She pulled back and looked into eyes as dark as the night sky. "Then show me, my lord Erestor, show me."

He moved over so he lay between her legs now and she ground herself shamelessly against him. He did not need to be prodded. He reached down and guided himself to her opening and slipped inside, groaning as her muscles grew tight and pulled him even deeper. He gave himself up to the pleasure of loving her one last time. As he came inside her, her legs wrapped around him as she too found release, she felt his tears touch her face and she knew that he loved her as much as she did him.

He left her before the sun rose on her wedding day and he cried in the sanctuary of his room when the wedding was over and she was the bride of his best friend.

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When they brought Celebrian home, Erestor held the twins long into the night. He had never seen an elf survive what she had. It remained to be seen if she would survive it. The twins were devastated, blaming themselves for the attack, for the horrors their mother had suffered.

Erestor went to them as Elrond tended Celebrian. He held his sons and felt his heart shatter into a million pieces.

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THE END

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